Finally!, I’m done being pregnant my baby boy is here! I’m excited but at the same sad, I think I might be suffering from postpartum depression because I’ve been having more & more frequent meltdowns. Starting with the hospital stay the delivery didn’t happen the way we planned, in fact it went TOTALLY left field I wanted to go all natural but because I had gestational diabetes I ended up having to be induced at 39 weeks 6 days. After trying a natural way to induce I dilated to 5 cm, then they started me on pitocin at first it was a low dosage that got the contractions going & I dilated 7 cm. They shot the dosage up & my body shut down & I stopped dilating, which resulted into me having an epidural & a c-section I was devastated. After receiving that news they wheeled me into the room & started cutting I felt cutting on the right side & told the nurse she shot something into my I-V & I went into a bad trip like state everything was spinning, my fiance & the nurse were talking to me & I could hear them but couldn’t respond. I missed everything & it saddens me even now. Fast forward, I’m slow getting around, but it’s getting better day by day.
It is 6:23 a.m…the morning of my induction, & I can’t sleep I literally am tossing & turning I’m thinking about going to make me a bagel & eggs THEN going back to sleep but I don’t wanna wake everyone in the house either, I kinda just want this time to myself. My fiance let me have the bed to myself but right after he got out I got up to pee for the fifty-millionth time and have been up ever since (that was 4 hrs. ago). I blame the induction for this, it’s like the feeling you get on the first day of school or the night before your birthday or birthday party as a kid you’re excited about it & as much as everyone keeps saying, “Sleep as much as you can” “Get enough rest tonight” I can’t, sad because I kept crying about how much sleep I wasn’t getting in the last couple of weeks because my overactive bladder took control again lol. I guess I’ll just cruise over my pregnancy books one last time while I listen to my other half snore like his life depended on it…
Other pregnant women: Oh. I started my diet today. No carbs, exercise, yada yada yada. I’m going to be so healthy for me and my baby.
Me (31 weeks pregnant): I’m sorry I didn’t hear you over the noise of me chewing these potato chips while sitting on the couch watching law and order?
Dove said it best “REAL beauty campaign”….Nobody looks like Victoria Secret models & no I’m not hating…
This day COULD NOT get any better found out that I am 1 cm. dilated I have been trying EVERYTHING to try & dilate some so this 1 cm. is a step up from nothing at all, Then for lunch I had the best burrito from chipotle which I have been craving for my WHOLE pregnancy, tonight be & the fiance are going to try & walk to get me into active labor if not it’s sexy time tonight.
Being pregnant I really am like this, it’s funny to laugh at myself now…even though being hungry is not.